#13

I gave myself a little random act of kindness one afternoon...It had been a month since mom had passed. On that day I realized that the day before was the first day I had NOT cried.  I counted up how many days it had been..30.  A little while later I was making banana bread and listening to music.  The Christina Aguilera song that I ALWAYS stop everything and dance to, came on.  I looked at the photo on my kitchen bar of my mom...framed in a pretty silver heart frame (given to me by a friend at work), I thought about how I had finally gone a day without crying,...and I grabbed it and danced the whole song WITH my mom!!! After all she taught me the love of music! Also, one of my earliest dance memories was with her...as she led us kids( elementary age) across the living room furniture, as we danced through the house with her in the lead, to Oom-pa-pa! (the drinking song from the soundtrack to the musical Oliver) Although this gift to myself made me very happy...when Dave came home from work and walked in on this scene...I had tears streaming down my face...and I was also laughing! So bittersweet!